I'm worried sick and still sleepy.

But who really cares with a cat on their shoulders.

New shawl.

two hundred and fifty six

No. Got stuck in worry again. Damnit.

I don't have time for this crap. Where are the giggly bits of life?

two hundred and thirty three

It was a good new years eve. And when it's good I forget to take pictures. Now I'm cold, dark and filled with anxiety again. Back to normal? I hope not.

two hundred and thirty

What if all I need is right here. Next to me, around me and inside?

one hundred and eighty

Nope. I'm not sure I can deal with myself and my highs and lows. I'm driving myself crazy here people. I can't. I can. I can't. I can. Ad nauseam.

one hundred and seventy seven

I acted sane at work all day. Nothing makes me feel more insane than realizing all my sane actions are fake.

one hundred and seventy six

A nothing kind of day. Did almost nothing. Worried about almost everything.

one hundred and sixty five

Took a train home. Many thoughts.

Got home. Tried. Kept thinking.

one hundred and fifty six

First photo where I'm not in it at all... But it wasn't about me at all tonight. And it IS a picture of my heart you might say.

Rolff got sick. This is after nine vomits at the vet emergency room. He's fine now, but we'll never ever leave chocolate where he might find it again!

one hundred and forty eight

I'm wearing a new shawl today and I just decided this will be a very, very good day. So there.

one hundred and thirteen

I tried setting up my camera to shoot me "in action - working" since I did some of that. I keep forgetting to bring camera to exiting work events (such as a lecture I did today!).

A couple of shots came out appropriate and boring. This - zoomed way too close - made me smile. It's more honest. This is how out of control of things I feel right now. I can't even use the zoom right.

(The mood for today does not apply to that lecture. When lecturing I felt alive!)

eighty

I was going to take a photo of all I had to do. Berry picking, planning, working, balling yarn, playing with dog... And then all of a sudden - the day went dark and it's night time again!

Where did the day go?

Hopefully you'll get to see some berries tomorrow...

seventynine

A wonderful afternoon at a flea market with a friend.

It takes my worry away to play with new old buttons...

seventysix

Something of a stomach ache. Physical and psychological tummy trouble.

seventyfour

Last day of vacation is all about keeping my anxieties at bay, and focus on the handiwork. Knitting. Knitting. Knitting.

fortynine

Have to leave Rolff at a dog hotel tonight since we're leaving for 11 days in the US tomorrow. I ache to leave him.

fortyseven

Still just worried. About everything and nothing. Crap.

fortysix

It was a nice and staged portrait. But then he decided I needed a kiss. I probably do, so this photo seems appropriate.

Plans are being made and things are sorted out, yet I have this gnawing worry in the pit of my stomach, and I can't even tell what's wrong...

fortytwo

It's a bright summer day outside, and I have been out there, but somehow I've been more inside my head than anywhere else.